I had a very nice evening last night with a very nice man; that made me felt nice, so I was so very nice.
We watched a musical, had an elegant yet rustic Italian meal, and strolled around with our hands locked.
It was nice.
We spent the night in the nicest way ever. It was typically romantic and slightly exhausting. But it was, nonetheless, nice.
I woke up in sunny niceness the next day. Then, I broke down and cried from being piously nice all the time.
Where are those who said they cared?
Still thankful and happy to those who made efforts to keep in touch.
So in retrospect, who are those I truly care about?
While trying to conjure up some funky food combinations that would induce such sensual pleasures, enough to make one’s palate dance and tingle,
suddenly,
I’m missing his kiss.
So sweet, so cute, so bashful.
The only one that I’ve had thus far that melted my body to a languid pool of pulsating biological mess. I wonder if I did raise one leg up?
I like to peep when kissing. Him closing his eyes with the night light softening his chiseled angles, god, that kiss was heaven. I feel like a demure princess when he tried to run his fingers through my hair, which was erm, kinda weird because of my crazily short hair back then. Haha. Anti-climax, right?
So you would presume that having worked in a hospital should sensitise you to become a better version of yourself, cherishing and appreciating your loved ones more et cetera.
But I was proven wrong today.
I was oddly calm, observing the repeated scene like a case study – I was unfeeling, analytical and slightly impatient. Medicine allows me to witness worse, but makes me jaded at the same time.
Have you had enough?
Like a kid in a candy store. Whee!
In the Aftermath laid tears herein.1
Why would I mourn for the passing of pain,
And not laugh with you when you loved?
Now as we immerse in the Aftermath,
Let’s live, and laugh,
As I know
You’d be dancing right by me.
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My fatigue entwines the heart,
Like one that we could carve on a tree.
I’m unused to the Aftermath,
Unused to the space that’s now free,
Undo if I could, and we’ll roll on grasses while they’re green.
And now stars will speak to those who have come to listen,
That unwasted was your dash and being.
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If anyone asked,
I’d tell them you’re exploring the world,
By yourself in a bright red jeep,
Selling soy sauce and maybe ice cream.
It’s quirky, I know, but no one would doubt if they could see,
The innocent persistence on your face,
The insistence of your breaking pace,
To the frontiers of the ivory gates.
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So say you’re taking a break,
Say you’re walking right out of the door,
Into a dream within a bright red jeep.
If it should be so that you have to leap,
Hands shaking and knees quick,
I’ll turn around and creep
Away.
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So you won’t see my crying,
Of tears withheld from landing,
For they shall always be left,
To the finding, oh the finding,
Of silvers amongst the golds,
In the
Aftermath.
I was getting really pensive in the shower just now……
“Maybe I’m really not cut out for this. I guess, I’m an artist by nature and I can’t help but daydream everyday, every time, everywhere. Random hooks of music floating in my brain, inspiration bouncing off the walls, colour explosions in my plate, it goes on and on.”
……Why did I choose to study medicine anyway?
I ♥ Popcorn
As tactless and primal it might sound… I LOVE SPRING I LOVE SPRING I LOVE SPRING!
Not (yet) that Spring is beautiful with blooming flowers and sappy greens, but the gist is, IT’S NOT COLD ANYMORE!! REJOICE!! If I could, I would be dancing on the top of the roof and swinging my hands and feets in sync, all the while hopping myself crazy. I feel like an ukelele, a rainbow fountain, a chocolate fudge pudding topped with yellow daisies, a small rock rolling down a mountain in the South of France…
YAY TO NO MORE SUBZEROS! YAY TO LESS LAYERS AND CLOTHINGS! YAY TO END OF HIBERNATION! YAY TO END OF TREMBLING BODIES, CHATTERING TEETH AND SCRUNCHING SHOULDERS!
I’m completely exaggarating this I know, but you just don’t know how good it feels to finally stretch your body without worrying about getting colder!
And to top it off, I had one of the most amazing day today. The events and purchases that happened were so incredibly mind-blowing and sweet, I’m sure I’m as high as crack gets anyone to be. I bought some books I never thought I would ever be able to own (chocolates! poetry! novels!), took up a COOKING CLASS (I know! I can’t believe it as well!), made friends with people that I soon learned to admire, devoured really good cheese and wine and bread, had free massages twice etc etc. It’s an incredible incredible day, I’m so blessed!
To be brutally honest, other than getting dumb-founded (which really only lasts for about 8 seconds) by the sheer beauty of frosty pearly snow , Winter (to me the tropical girl) is really only there to celebrate Spring. And now that the temperature’s slowly creeping up… Oh yes! I’m living the dream!
…….. AND SPRING, I LOVE YOU LONG LONG!
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The 4 housemates gathered in the room today to admire the white fluffs bouncing about in the crisp spring air. It was really weird, that it was snowing so heavily weeks after what should have been the end of winter (Spring Festival, anyone?). Us 4 girls just stared silly at the open window, for once enjoying the bone-chilling wind.
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I sighed dreamily, “Imagine we have boyfriends and we’re out there strolling under an umbrella, all the while leaning onto each other trying not to slip, and with those cottony snow trapped in our hair, frosted exhalations whilst laughing about nothing at all… Ah, so sweet!”
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“HURRRRRR…… Wanhui can you don’t say already…!!”
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And right there and then, I don’t know what’s scarier – the erratic climatic change or the grave expressions on the girls’ faces.
